Real Choices and Real Consequences

There is one thing I know for certain...every action has a consequence. As a teacher to high school students I found that I would say this phrase so often that the kids probably tuned me out. Yet, I wanted them to hear me so bad. I wanted them to just remember that little truth...no matter what they were doing just knowing this can help...or so I thought.
I have found myself in a place in my life where I almost feel like I am having to heed my own advice more so than I had before. All of a sudden I feel like every single thing I do has extra weight on it. All of a sudden all of my decisions are directly affecting many people instead of just myself. It's like if I do this it does that and so on. The pressure is driving me crazy!!! I don't want that sort of responsibility. I wanna have freedom in my choices and not feel trapped. I want to feel the ability to make a mistake without it destroying anyOne else...just me. I can handle the consequences for myself...it's these two little angels I just can't put in the mix without becoming an anxious crazy mess!
I want it to be known that what you may think you see in me right now isn't true. I think of my girls always. I know what I am doing and I know it changes their lives forever. I know! Trust me. I also know that I trust that God has a plan in all of this. I know that God is blessing me...He is blessing my girls. He is placing friends in our lives that help us be happy, He has brought old relationships back with new meaning that is changing the way we see the world, He is slowly mending broken feelings and building a new normal. He is here...in the midst of the crazy place I now find myself...He is here!
I know that every action...every decision has a consequence. I think of this all the time. Just remember when you think you know something you probably don't. Please don't judge my actions if you don't know my reasons. Trust in me as your friend, family, teacher, peer, partner...whatever role I play in your life...please know that I don't do anything without totally OVER thinking it. So even of you think I am acting rashly or recklessly...I can promise you I am not. Also please know I am an open book. I refuse to pretend or hide ever again. You either love me or dont regardless. So basically...
Let it be! Let me learn. Let me live. Let me love. Just let me...