Oh. If I could change one thing about myself it would be that ever so annoying thing...girly insecurity. The poor poor gentlemen that encounter us in those fleeting yet so destructive moments where lets face it...perception means nothing unless it's our own.
I hate it!
I will even know its happening and yet I can't seem to stop it. I either panic over the littlest things, over analyze every word, tone of voice, body language and facial expression. Sounds crazy huh? Well it's called being a girl! Some how it only feels normal and not so crazy when you are with your friends and they all tell the same type story or even better when their story is worse and you don't feel so bad.
The problem is this...we are just real girls: we have real fears, real scars, real experience, real love, real needs that lead us to this tormented place we clearly don't wanna be. The real world we live in drives us there.
So how do we calm down those in our path...be it your significant other, your friends, your family members...basically whoever it was that took the brunt of your moment of girl realness? How do we make them see we don't wanna push? We don't wanna question. Heck for many the moments flee as fast as they come, but some moments come with a price. Sometimes the moment and the reactions leave a trail of destruction that can't be overcome. I have been there and done that. I don't wanna do that.
I need realy girl real world therapy while traveling my new journey in life. I need to unload a bunch of crud at the nearest trash and I need to hold on just tight enough to show how much I care but lose enough to allow them to breathe.
I am certain we all need to do this...
It's great to be a girl but it's frustrating also...just trust us guys and gals...we don't wanna be needy sappy or what er. No. We really just wanna be wanted...not being wanted is the saddest and scariest feeling...EVER!!!
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