It always amazes me how you can be so involved in your own attempts at controlling your life that you ignore the fact that we really control nothing. Some believe whatever will happen will happen, or choose your own destiny. I have come to realize that I have little control but I have a huge desire to control. I know I shouldn't fret and worry and that I should "let go and let God". So my knowledge is that God is always taking care of us. I believe that...100%.
So I had to realize that I wasn't forgotten while I was sad or scared, but a better way was being made for me. When I didn't get job A or B it was because God had a better one in store. I didn't fail at this or that...I just got stronger for the next time. I didn't lose someone...I gained THE one. I didn't let my kids down I am going to make them happier. I may not have much 'stuff', but I have riches in friends family and life. I have just the right amount of things and little desire for more. I am content.
I know you have heard that there are three ways God answers us:
Yes
No
Wait
Well, I believe sometimes the wait is to teach us about letting go...trusting him, and learning to accept the things we go through as payment for the blessings we end up in. I am really really blessed...I feel undeserving of the many blessings sometimes. I know that is silly but I can't help it. I sit here tonight pondering...how did I really get this lucky...better yet, blessed?
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