The Good, The Bad, The Ugly...

Not a movie review. It is just a statement that lays testament to what I have been witnessing lately. I have seen the good in people, the bad in those same people, and the just plain ugly. Sadly, I know that I too have shown my good, bad and ugly side to others. Oh how I hate to admit that. Makes my spine trickle and I hate it. You know who witnesses our good, bad and ugly the most? Our spouse. Bless my poor husbands soul...little did he know just how emotional a girl can be and when. He does have a way of making it through my ugly days and still has the ability to see my good through all the bad and ugly. I like to think I am equally blessed with this ability with him. As a teacher my kiddos sometimes get to see the good, bad and ugly too. I work very hard at keeping the ugly hidden, but have probably dropped the ball on that a few times. I can't recall any specific scenario right now, but could be wrong. What I really hate is when children are put in the crossfire of some truly UGLY scenarios. I always always always work to avoid this. I have to credit my awesome husband for helping me with this. I wasn't always as cautious and careful with my feelings about certain people, but he was relentless in his quest to calm my storm and to teach me that I can always vent to him...but never out loud in front of kiddos. It wasn't because I was not concerned with the kiddos...I was just so enveloped in anger and resentment that sometimes I overflowed...and he was always there to calm the beast and I am forever thankful. I have recently seen what a blessing that was. Hearing kids talk of what the adults in their house are saying and how it is effecting them is heartbreaking. I shudder to think if I ever did that...and so happy I have learned to quiet my anger. Never ever should the kiddos feel the pain, anger, and torture we feel. That is our burden to handle not theirs. When people get married I hope they marry someone who brings out the best in them. Someone who can handle the bad and ugly and always cultivate the good. I am so incredibly lucky to have married my best friend, someone who knows the darkest pits of my life, someone who is responsible for so much of the sunshine, someone who has suffered pain and agony himself, someone who sees me for me regardless of what state I am in...my soul mate. When you are feeling bad, I hope you have someone to help you out. When you are feeling ugly , I hope you have someone to reign in the monster. When you are feeling good, I hope you have someone there to be witness and to encourage it further.