I love when I am having a great dream and it's so real I actually feel the emotions...but then you get woke up and you are like dang! You try to go back to sleep, but it's too late...your dream is over.
Then there are times I have had a nightmare that also felt real and left my heart racing, tears streaming, gut wrenching pain, and the sweet relief of being woke up can't come quickly enough. It's the welcome of reality that's so refreshing.
I have also experienced tremendous joy while awake so much so that I sometimes think I should pinch myself to make sure it's for real. I have also walked the path of horror in life where I would beg to wake up...that it not be true.
I recently lost a sweet friend who treasured an entire year of memories for me to cancer. She was my first college roommate and was a part of me growing up and becoming me. I felt great regret when I heard...why hadn't we stayed closer, I should have said more, I should have been there, etc. I felt all those things you feel when it's too late...
Kel passing made me aware of the fleeting moments before me. About how my tomorrow's aren't guaranteed. To love without limits. To take each day and make it count. I don't want to leave regretting or questioning. I wanna leave learning growing loving being loved and spreading laughter and joy. I lived too many days waiting to be woke up...now it's time to live and feel the need to pinch.
Let's make reality the best we can.
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