It's hard to imagine that life isn't always funny like a sitcom or always lovey like a love story. I have had to really come to terms with my 'expectations' of life. My life.
I am victim of the things of this world...I want the 'picture perfect' life. I want the dream marriage where it's full of passionate love and heart-gripping devotion. I want the perfect children with perfect health and brains and athleticism. I want a great job where I am happy and achieving something. I want the nice home with all it entails.
How horrific is that truth I just laid out? I mean really...it's disgusting. I know it's yet sometimes I still want it. The truth is though...my life is its own type of perfect. With all things there will be problems...in my marriage with my children my job hunt my home. Really the only thing I truly view as perfection are my girls. Their beauty and overall being in my opinion is perfect! I know they don't mind all the time and that they have inherited all my yucky illnesses, but they are perfect. It's only in them that I really see God. I see the gift they are and the greatness of his miraculous ability to create life.
What I need to do is take down my expectations from what I have seen in movies or on television, or read in books and take a look at the truth around me. I have to realize I can't meet those expectations and neither can anyone else in my life. I need to focus on the reality of my purpose and role here on this earth. It's not to achieve perfection but to love the Lord and help raise children to Love the Lord.
Real life is full of problems and imperfections. Real life can sure be funny and it can sometime be romantic, but real life is ever changing and will enevitably have valleys and mountains.
I am struggling right now to embrace my real life and to understand when in a valley I must keep going to ever reach a mountaintop.
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